英语翻译I'm usually very defensive and for a long time I haven't

英语翻译
I'm usually very defensive and for a long time I haven't been able to open up the way I did with you.i was willing to go through whatever difficult times ahead as long as you make me feel worthwhile.trust is crucial.i hope so much to have that with you but it I dont.im torn in between.i don't know what to do.i feel helpless