英语翻译求翻译；第一句：I don·t want to ,you don·t exist第二句：Grow up is a

英语翻译
求翻译；第一句：I don·t want to ,you don·t exist第二句：Grow up is a original need half an hour to walk away and now just ten minutes.But when I grow up?Still will say nothing,but in the heart hard to death.Still pretend doesn't matter,will face the in the mind is willing to die...Tell yourself don't care,don't want to.But still can't control...
长大就是一条原先需要半个小时来走的路程而今只需十分钟。可是我长大了吗？依旧会嘴上说着没事，心中却难受的要死。依旧会脸上装着无所谓，心里却计较的要死。告诉自己不要在意，不要 去想。可依旧会控制不了。