英语翻译这是孤秋的时候,独自一人的感受、 不知道秋天是怎么样开始的最后也不知道它是怎么样过去的有些在嘴边说了又说的话语谁

It’s a lonely time; I feel the loneliness all by myself. I don’t know when the autumn begins and also when it ends. Who cares the words repeated by me, who lies to me? How long can you stay the simple and ordinary life?
Many people laugh happily in front of the crowd but keep sopor lonely when he was alone. The flowers in the yard fade together in hanks. Sometimes the nippy autumn winds devastate everything in the yard madly. I don’t want to escape as if I was captured in a cage.
It’s so silent there in the yard. The charnel weather plays his trick with everything in the yard successfully. I don’t know where I should go. There rudimental leaves and flowers keep entangled together until the death coming and even after they are carious. Could anyone tell me how much time are there needed to review the former memory and how many seconds are there needed to bring the used happy occasions back. The good memory is toppling in my universe now.
Colorless sky decorated with the calmness of the lonely autumn, can I paint it? Can I paint it all with faint orange? I want to because I wish to commemorate nostalgically the old time. The chilly wind blows into my eyes and penetrates into my soul from the sky. The weather is still so cold that as if she is mourning at the soul of the lonely autumn.
I doubt that whether I will miss the next morning forever if I closed my eyes. But I wish I could. The lonely feeling really can put one to death as well as make the dead come to life. When can I adapt to the left of lonely autumn and the gray sky as well as the deserted room? When can I be strong and no longer feel sentimental and melancholy when I was alone?
Does it mean the disappearing of my universe gradually when I lose my own world? Isn’t it? Sometimes a single sentence, a single wink or a single movement as well as a single circumstance can let me sigh with emotions, it seems to me that I am sentimental when I was disconsolate.