翻译大神快来一展身手The control you have over me leaves me speechless.

翻译大神快来一展身手
The control you have over me leaves me speechless. The words always tangle on my tongue in a knot tied by fear and rejection and misunderstanding and hopelessness. Even when I manage to break the restraints, no one can fully emphasize. Some try, and I love them for it, but it never fills me up completely. Because of you, I still don’t know what it feels like to be whole.
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