英语翻译I convinced myself was ok to give up ,don`t take risks,s

英语翻译
I convinced myself was ok to give up ,don`t take risks,stick with status quo.
No drama,now is just not the time,but my reasons aren`t reasons,they`re excuses.
All i`m doing is hiding from the truth and the truth is that^^^I`m scared,I`m scared that if I let myself be haoppy for even one moment that the world`s just going to come crashing down .and I don`t know if I can survive that.
I met a man,we talked,it was epic,but then the sun came up and reality set in,
well,this is reality.right here