英语作文改错,Not untill you told me will i know how terrible i am.

英语作文改错,
Not untill you told me will i know how terrible i am.I blamed it all on that shopkeeper,now i realised it's my fault.
God,can you bless me?even a short moment,is that extravagant?i want,i want to be a mature adult,why it's so difficult?i thought i could do it well,but i failed.Having lost in so many life games,i still cannot get any experience,i am such kind of foolish.
Summer vacation is around the corner,i still cannot find any part-time job,is that hard?My friends,you always forgive me and encourage me,i thank you so much,please keep confidence in me,i'll try my best to get one,seriously!
Finally,god,i hope you will stand by me for one moment!