英语翻译i will to commit suicide,so say goodbye to youyou say ,y

英语翻译
i will to commit suicide,so say goodbye to you
you say ,you are tired,i want say something to you ,but i do not know what i want to say,maybe ,i want to redeem you ,but i have not courage
,i can not cont me,i always miss you,i am smoking、crying、but ...i just want you comes back,